Times
are changing fast. It is amazing how I am offered the opportunity to
be patient. It is embarrassing to say, but I remember when I used to
joke every time the Lord offered me the chance to learn more patience
and to learn to trust in the Lord's time line, I would openly jest
that there just wasn't a way I could learn and that the Lord should
just give up.
I
am so thankful that the Lord was loving and forgiving and kept
offering me the opportunity to accept Him, and to turn my heart over
to Him. This weekend, I was able to spend some evaluable time with my
mom. She told some stories, that I wish I could share to demonstrate
my points. Anyway, she told some stories that opened my eyes to a
reality of our family history that invite me to view things
differently. The stories touched my heart, and I was filled with
compassion and empathy for people in my past.
Here
in the Lord's time, He has opened a door of opportunities.
Opportunities to let go, to forgive, to find peace and eternal joy in
my family and our history. Circumstances, define our past, but don't
have to dictate our present nor our future. Understanding where I
came from, has helped me define who I am, and why. This has given me
the opportunity to peacefully lay down some of my shortcomings,
without grudging feelings toward my past.
We
can only do, what we know. As I've matured I have found the heart to
search for something bigger than myself. With that search I've found
that love has always been in my life, but sometimes is covered up by
false perceptions and of course FEAR. I've done the best I can with
these false perceptions and FEAR because it's all I've known. Now,
things are different, things are opening up to a beautiful world of
possibilities, of love, of a life of truth within myself.
Thank
you, Mom for sharing. I really appreciate your courage in the
hardships you face. Your example gives me courage and strengthens me
so that I can work through my issues. I'm looking forward to a
brighter tomorrow, as we can enjoy a “perfect brightness of hope.”
(2 Ne 31:20) I love you Mom.
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