Last night I had a great experience. I had to attend a class that I didn't want to, every time I have to go I get a lot of anxiety. I had about an hour and a half before the class started. I felt that I needed cherry sours. If you don't know they are candy, I buy them at Cal Ranch. I ran to Wal-Mart to get some things I needed. When I was finished it was only half hour before I needed to be at class. Realisticly there wasn't time to go to Cal Ranch and still get to class on time. I immediately started to justify. Since I don't like being in this class, it won't matter if I'm late. I'm not learning or getting anything out of this class...On and on. As I walked out of Wal-Mart I realized that it made more sense to take the freeway to class, I could get there on time with a minimum traffic. As I quickly thought about it. (I'm always amazed at how fast thoughts can run through my mind) Anyway, I realized that my anxiety toward this class was what was driving me to the cherry sours. I like them, I do, but this moment I felt like I needed them. I didn't really even want them.
This was the first time, I recognized this situation in this light. I eat because of anxiety, and I justify doing it. As I made this realization I was able to step back and recognize that although, I am powerless to over come these triggers on my own I have a wonderful Heavenly Father that loves me, and is supporting me through giving me the gift of this realization that through Him, I can over come my weaknesses.
It doesn't matter what addiction you are recovering from, I challenge you to look for your triggers, and evaluate how they effect your life...I'd love to hear from you, and share with me what works for you when these triggers show up in your life.
May Angels Walk With You