I have some catching up to do. I haven't written in a long time. I still have a lot to say, at least in my heart. My life has definitely changed, since I last wrote here.
To begin with my search for simplicity has taken on a "real" dimension in my life. I have sold off many of the larger items in my home and in my life that was just taking up space. I have also sold off some smaller things. There is a "real" inspiration to doing a little cleaning out the closet. Both physically and emotionally. I have come to the realization that, as I was stuck in my ever pleasing manner of co-dependency, I collected physical things in an attempt to fill the emotional voids in my life. The truth is, I found comfort in being surrounded by things that could never love me, simply because they could never hurt me either.
This realization has been hard to accept, but beautiful as well. Imagine how hard it is to let go of these things...In theory I told myself it was a way to make a little extra income. Although, true it was still a lie I was telling myself to make the separation easier. There was a lot of heartache watching these things walk out the door with other people.
Looking back, it was some of the best gift I could have ever given myself. There is a freedom in letting go. There is a sense of weightlessness in letting go.
Tomorrow, I'm going to talk about a relationship I was forced to let go of...That has been so hard and so heartbreaking. I've come to a point where I find joy in that the relationship is over, and how toxic it was without me even recognizing it.
Until tomorrow. May Angels Walk With You